A Psalm

"Death wrapped its ropes around me;
The terrors of the gave overtook me.
I saw only trouble and sorrow.
Then I called on the name of the Lord:
'please, Lord, save me!'
How kind the Lord is! How good he is!
So merciful, this God of ours!
The Lord protects those of childlike faith;
I was facing death, and he saved me.
Let my soul be at rest again,
For the Lord has been good to me.
He had saved me from death,
My eyes from tears,
My feet from stumbling.
And so I walk in the Lord's presence
As I live here on earth!

Psalm 116:3-9

Quality Time

This weekend my husband and father-in-law are rewiring parts of our house. Meaning that we temporarily have no electronics. No TV. No internet. No radio our CD players. It's back to basics for my son and I. :) getting some quality time with my boy. Thankful that I have the energy to entertain and keep up with him!!

Packing it On

Had a good doctors appointment today! Highlight: I am now 10 pounds closer to my weight goal! I don't know how I did it, but I managed to gain 7 pounds in a week!! :) if I keep up this pace, I'll be back to my normal self in 2 weeks :p

Coffee time

Decided today to have a cup of delicious coffee! And it was exactly that: delicious!! I think this calls for a new morning routine: Shower, coffee, then curl up with a blanket and do devotions. Before the 'craziness' (:p) of the my day starts.
Yep that sounds worth a try :)

Had a bone treatment yesterday afternoon and wasn't quite sure what to expect. After the majority of them, I'm usually too tired to think. Today, while I may not be at my most witty, I feel more awake and like being part of society. :)
Now if I could just get my son to turn this one toy off, the day would be much better :p

I Dreamed a Dream

My entire life I have had specific goals and dreams for myself. You know, like the cute house, SUV, dog, handsome husband and 4 kids. I also wanted to get my nursing degree and work in a hospital, with ambitions of school nursing so I could be home with my kiddos. Now I'm being told that more than likely a few of the dreams won't come true. I.e. having more kids. I know some of you will say, "there is always adoption". Which you're absolutely right. And Keith and I would love to adopt! But he and I aren't sure that I would qualify because of the cancer. Its just been on my mind a lot lately because everyone is having babies or getting pregnant. It's challenging to read the posts for once. :( why would God still have a dream seem so plausible, and within reach,  if it's not??

Finally on 'the pill'!... :l

Today is my first official day on the chemo pills. It was a rough start :( I took my first dose this morning along with some pain meds and my antibiotics. (yes i had breakfast first) And about 45 minutes later I was sick. I'm sincerely hoping that I was sick because I took it all at once. So, tonight I made sure to take nausea meds first, and then the everything else had 15 minute gaps in between. Now my stomach and I wait in awkward suspense... Will this do the trick? Our will I be sick again? :(